Have you ever done something that you NEVER thought you’d do? Ride a roller coaster? Swim in the ocean? Eat a crazy bug? Breathe fire? Okay, the last one may be a bit extreme, but, hey, we all have to dream big! Today was one of those days for me. I never, EVER, saw myself in ministry, let alone preaching. And here I am, amongst some anointed young preachers at the Academy of Preachers where I just proclaimed the word of God from behind the sacred desk for the first time. I will admit that I was nervous. As Dr. Entrekin delivered an intro that made me blush, my heart began to beat a tattoo in my chest. My hands were clammy. I felt the perspiration forming on my brow. I could feel the eyes of the audience on me. I knew that the word I had was from God, but my flesh kept nagging me. It was taunting me even. What if you fail? What if they hate it? What if you lose your place? What if you don’t deliver like the others who have preached before you? Ironic that the theme for this year is ’Questions of the Soul’… As I stood and began, all I can say is that God is FAITHFUL.
It is more than a cliché to say that ’whom he has called he has qualified’ because today that has become my testimony. I am still processing all that has happened. I can say that, coming to the festival, I was wrestling with where God wants me – seriously wrestling. Like if God was right here in the flesh, it would be WWE! After today, I feel closer to my call than before and some things have been confirmed in me. And to think, this is only day one…
I thank God for the blessing of spiritual awakening and being present during my theology journey at CBTS. He has accepted the desire for my own strength in pastoral ministry and my enthusiasm for learning from difficulties of the ministry. All of it has come with God’s grace. Thus, I promise to live to return His blessings to Him through sincere pastoral ministry.